Flashbacks,

Oh God.

Well, I'm trying to sleep. But I keep on having flashbacks.
It's pissing me off more and more. And I don't want to think about these
kinds of things or feel these kinds of emotions right before I sleep. It
isn't a good feeling at all.

AGHDWESIWSEYWJWSODHDZ.

Taunting me. Provoking me.

I really don't know what to do.

Everyday before I sleep (unless I am extremely sleepy) I review about
everything. It makes me so mad that I always think of the best things
AFTER it happens. It's a crazy angry buzzing feeling.

Well, in other news, I finished all my homework early today. Nice.

I need to finish my homework, earlier and earlier. Starting tomorrow. I
will finish my homework before 5PM or maximum 6PM. No computer
distractions.

I really need to really start working to gain $$$.

I need $$$.

Oh and also, it's almost Jennifer's birthday. Yay.
Can't wait yo. Haven't seen you in a long time.

Christmas songs non-stop. Yay. Let it snow.

I'm. Dreaming. Of a. White. Christmas.

Damn it. I need to let it out.
A few days ago. A switch inside me clicked on a bit.
It's been slowly clicking towards being fully on.
It's almost there.

It's scary.

I really don't know what to do.

Stay happy, kiddo. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts.
Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts. Happy
thoughts. Happy thoughts.

I seriously despise myself every time this happens. I mean like, wow.
Slow reaction.

You have to,

Act fast. Act now. As advertised.

Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts.
Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts.
Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts.
Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts.
Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts.

~DT